the hardest battle you will ever be on is with yourself

well, screw this. i cant find any other solution for this problem. ive been in this situation before and i need someone to save me. why cant i fix problems on my own? im trying to fight this. people say the hardest battle you will ever be on is with yourself, and i guess theyre right. i shouldnt make the same mistake twice, but i did. yea i did. and have no idea to fix it. can we just go back to the start? i need to fix a few things in the past so i wont be in this situation right now. $%^(*$@#$%^(;* what should i do nooooww??