yes, i agree that action speaks more than words. because you said no like thousands times but it only took one action to give me a prove that your words dont match your actions. guess im not the only one ;)

Dear my sister, i know you will never read this because i bet you dont even know if i have a blog haha. just so you know, since the day you told me that you are getting married, i cant stop wondering how our life would completely change. it's been (almost) 22 years and i just cant remember when was the last time we spend our time together, just you and me. have we? i know you're busy with your life and so am i but sometimes i want to have that sisterhood thing that so many people are talking about. may be that's why lately i ask you to go to the movie with me, or even just to buy some ice cream. but i guess youre busy making a lot of money and preparing your wedding well thats fine hehe.
You know what, they say marriage would change everything, like its the end of the era. but i do hope, that it could bring a positive change. i mean it could make us closer. hmm, yes or no? hahahaha. because youre gonna move out and i know youre gonna miss me so you will ask me to go with you more often. or... the worst possibility is it could take most of your time so you wont even have a minute for me. i choose the first possibility please. hehe.
But dont worry i'll do my best to help you preparing your wedding. whatever you need and i'll be your personal assistant for free (but you still have to pay the invitations and pre wedding because its nomaden project :p). well, im happy for you. and i always be so proud of you :)

Do you know how it kills, knowing the person you trust the most is keeping something from you while you thought youve known everything about them? You trust them with your life but then you know something you never expected before. That was really heartbreaking... You cant even get mad, you cant even cry because you have no power for it. Youre just trying not to believe it, and you wish you never found out

"Sometimes you easily forgive someone because you still want them in your life". Yea i usually do that but somehow, this time isn't that easy. I find it so hard to forgive. I will never forget i guess. I was so disappointed. Wait, i still am. I get mad everytime remember that sh*t. My heart says just forgive but my head says no. What do you think? Am i an idiot because i got into the same trouble more than 2 times? Yea maybe i am. It's my fault for trusting too much.