People will come and go. Even the ones who promise you will stay no matter what, could possibly leave. 
I regret some decisions I’ve made and can do nothing to change. Well, what have happened can’t be changed okay then. I just have to be more careful next time. Noted that. 
I really wanna stop doing things because of others or even for others, without considering about what I want and what I need. Because some people say that I will not live forever with them, but i will live forever with myself. And yes, that’s correct.

day by day passed, we're growing up, we learned to be better. i started to see things differently. i'm (still) learning to let go, trying not to be stubborn, and accepting the truth that not everything's gonna the way i want them to. maybe what i want is not what i need and what feels good is not always right. i should know that i cant have every single thing i want. maybe just some of it, or even not at all. not only things but also about people. i should understand that life is changing, i cant have them. i cant force people to always be there for me because they have life(s) to live, things to do. i cant be selfish anymore. they say even friends go, life must go on. so okay then...
hmm i also have so many dreams and hopes. i dream high and hope for the best. but i have to prepare for the worst either. be prepared so if only things dont go the way i plan it, i could be mature enough and just let them go. i wont force anything to happen anymore. i just want to believe that if it's meant to be, it will be... goodnight :)