I was wondering, why am i bothering myself by taking care so much about others while they never do the same? Why cant i be careless? I think from now on i just need to close my eyes, cover my ears and dont give a fck about anything but myself.

why cant i just move on and leave it behind? holding back is killing me. i wish i could just forget it all. i need distraction. i really do.

What's the matter? Maybe I'm not perfect like them, so what? Maybe I can't do what they can, so what? Is it a problem? I don't know what the good point of this thing is. The point of being near to the people who are exactly "more" than i am, in every way. I dont say i'm jealous. I'm just... Emmm, let's say i'm just insecure.
I'm trying so hard not to running away. I'm doing my best to stay and act like everything is extremely fine. Yea, i'm pretending. Pretending to like listening to their stories, their lifes. But the truth? I'm sick of it. I don't care. Why should i give fck about their life when no one even cares about mine? Well actually i don't have one i guess. That's why no one cares. Because i don't even have one to share... Got it. Poor me.